So many voices trying to break out

I have so much to say,
So much that I hide,
I try to push my thoughts out,
But they push it back inside.

So many voices, trying to break out,
So many people, yet they can't hear me shout,
With nothing but mixed emotions by my side,
So many feeling, bottled up inside.                                                                

I try to listen to my head,
But they make me listen to them instead,
The whole world seems to be against me,
When I'm in sorrow, they seem to be in glee.

Every time I try to stand strong,
They push me down and tell me I'm wrong,
Every time I fix the whole in my heart,
They pierce it again, taking me back to the start.

The only reason I smile when the world is by my side
Is to disguise the pain that grows more and more inside,
Sometimes I wish I'm not alone,
That I had someone to help me through this ride,
Someone who realized that deep down inside,
I'm just not the person I pretend to be outside.

                -Shruti Perumal

Life is not fair



Why is everything such a mess
I am under too much stress
Nothing i do turns out right
And i can never sleep at night

Noone seems to love me anymore
Life seems to be such a bore
I have no one else to stand by me
As lonely as ever i'll always be

There is always a tear in my eye
But i have noone to ask me why
I cant help thinking how crazy life is
The good old times i always miss

Every morning i look at my face
But all i see is just a disgrace
Life cannot get any worse
So all it deserves is just a curse

Sometimes i feel lost and wonder what to do
I have nowhere to go and no one to talk to
I feel that my life is not fair
I wish i had some where to go and some one to care